The Journey into Savage 16A casual scrub's raiding misadventures
"Join practice parties every day," I told myself. Well, what happened next? I proceeded to oversleep for 3 days in a row and miss my practice session.
I wonder if I am becoming burnt out. It has been 10 weeks of Savage progression. 10 weeks of waking up early to raid, of weekly clears every Tuesday reset. Beneath my hunger for the clear, there is also a kind of fatigue - a desire to get this over with and be able to say "I'm done, I did it, I am free!"
I thought I was past the danger zone - that, having mastered phase 1 and 2, I am qualified for phase 3, and the clear is within reach. But this battle continued to spite me. Every party I was in died at the 1st merry-go-round or immediately after.
It is very hard to practice, because just reaching Phase 3 is insufficient. The entire party must be alive and in good condition. If even 1 person is dead, mechanics will target the wrong player, and the strategy fails. One party was a static of 5 players. However, as a static, their strategies differed from the PF standard in a few ways, causing confusion. Other parties wiped in Phase 2. A single misplaced marker will wipe the entire party or result in starting Phase 3 with deaths.
When this happens, I start to think selfish, unreasonable things. "I just need the rest of these guys to stop dying, then I can practice the last phase!" And later, "maybe I should join the clear party. I've watched the guide, I'm certain I can do the mechanic after seeing it once." (It's wishful thinking. Watching guides is never sufficient.) While I know these thoughts are wrong, it can be very difficult to resist human nature.
However, today something happened that cured me of this notion forever. I was in a party for "Phase 3 prog > clear", and the SAM kept dying in phase 1. He blamed "server lag" for this (??)
After a few wipes in Phase 2, my co-tank asked him if he needed any explanation. He said yes, so the party explained all of phase 2 to him. "The first blue marker should go down," the tank was saying.
"Is it a marker on your head or in your status bar?" the SAM asked. At this point, it became obvious that the SAM knew nothing of phase 1 or 2. The same mechanic of orange, yellow and blue markers is used throughout the fight in different combinations, and anyone who has cleared phase 2 should be familiar with it. (Image is of a different, unrelated party, just to show what markers I am talking about.)
I decided to give it 1 last try, and on the next pull, the SAM misplaced the Crumbling Down boulder, and the party wiped. This was one of literally 2 times in Savage where I got really annoyed with a player. I didn't want to deal with it, so I said "thank you for the party" and left. Careless mistakes are one thing, but being dishonest about your level of experience and blaming it on lag is another!
No, I thought to myself, I will not be like that SAM. We must not become that person who is unprepared to do their duty, and turns the party into a trap party.
I realize now that Savage is not just a test of skill at video games. In a small way, it is also a test of character.
There is an air of desperation in PF. I saw one person's PF pop up several times. First it said "P2 cleanup, P3 prog", then "P3 to enrage prog" several times, then "P3 prog to clear", then "PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CLEAR US ;_;". Well, at least he/she is making progress, lol.
I thought about the WHM and WAR I met on my practice party last week, have they both cleared by now? I saw a tank who was in practice party with me a few weeks earlier now started a party for weekly 2 chest, has she cleared too?
No, let's not think this way. Focus on ourselves, master the fight, and sooner or later we will clear. However many times the boss kills us, we are not truly defeated until we give up.
The long, hard road goes on and on, and there is no way left to go but forward, further into the most cruel and painful part of my journey.
Don't get bitter, just get better! Let's clear together next time!