After two years of being in Ultros, after the good times, the bad times, the sad times, meeting, making and loosing friends, I decided to change servers. Its temporary though as I really do want to start in a fresh server, but Ultros felt suffocating, it didn't feel safe. I got back stabbed and ignored enough times that i just couldn't handle it
It's funny, when i was in Ultros the game somehow stopped being fun to become a responsibility that no one but myself gave to me. And it was payed off badly. I learned a lot. It's funny that although I'm sad because I'm leaving some friends behind, I feel a sort of relief. I won't be an annoyance to some people, I won't have to hide so others don't feel uncomfortable or I don't feel uncomfortable. I know at least 4 people will be happy with my departure, I hope they enjoy it.
I am always open to new adventures, and Eorzea is a fun playing ground.. It's funny how once all the responsibilities were gone, how the burden of having to plan for others happiness while my own was on the backburner, how caring for others while they didn't care for me, how keeping my promises while they didn't keep theirs, and I started with a blank slate has made me feel happy.
My friendlist got wiped, but so did my blacklist and i am eager to see who i will meet and how it'll make me grow more
Goodbye Ultros, and Thank you. I learned a lot and I'm very happy to have met the people i did while i was on you.. I'll learn as much as i can from the new server, and come November when the NA servers are announced I'll move there =3
Forget about the bad people and cherish the good ones! Make another character to still keep in contact with the cherisble friends. But breath again a new! I did the same.. going through similar situations that I experienced. You'll learn it's not a loss but a gain! The most important person in all this is you. Keep that in your perspective and you'll gain more than you thought.
It's too bad people that feel the same way don't get together as friends. I imagine a large group of people happy to share similar experiences with interests and enjoying the game with each other. I'm sure it will happen.. just not at my words.
Thank you Exousia, I'll keep your advice of the alt in mind.. I gotta admit i feel relieved and happy and it already feels like a gain, I miss my real friends, but the only thing I regret is the time I wasted with the fake ones